Commitment.

That's one huge word is you ask me. It's one thing that I absolutely suck at. As hard as I try, I just can't seem to deal with it. And it's nights like these, those nights where I can't catch some zzz's, those nights where I have no one to talk to, those nights where I have nothing better to do, that make me question.....

"What have I chosen to do with my life?"

"Why aren't I doing more things with my life?"

"Why the fuck is her life any different than mine?"

Sumpah lari topic sebenarnya. But yeah, back to the whole commitment thing, I have issues with it. This all started to come to my attention when I tried so hard to fall asleep earlier, and I couldn't, so I ran on over to my computer, trying to look for something to do.  Clicked on YouTube and discovered that I watched everything interesting in my subscription feed, even ended up on the "dark side" of YouTube. I spent 30 minutes just sitting here, cracking my head, thinking.....and then I realised that I have commitment issues when it came to trying to devote my time to watching a full-length movie, let alone a whole freaking season of a TV series. Lol I suck at all this. And here my friends are all bonding with each other over conversations about HTGAWM, TVD and all things alike. That used to be sooooo me, like, 5 years ago. 

I need to get a life, ASAP. Or is this a sign that I already do have one? *insert whichever emoji that you feel is appropriate*